You need to choose

sometimes in your life the most hurtful situation is when what you have been preaching to others are thrown back to your face

you have been advising friends and families to withhold all feelings towards the unity of bigger groups, unity of a family..the feelings of the elderly..the feelings of your children are far more important than yourself.. sacrifices are to be made, feelings are to be kept to oneself and chew the unhappiness and it hope it will wear off one day..

all are nicely said then done...when it come to yourself practising the most preached or advised is not the same if you need to go through it yourself..

so...I am enjoying it right now...