..when i listen to music..

..my feelings changed and ...

..how the music can change my mood...

..how many times it brought tears...

..how many times it changed my entire perception about life..

..how many times it makes me missed the old good days..

..how many times it should scar my heart...


music cherished me..most of the time..

but today..the music is killing my peace...

i kept thinking..and it is hurting teribbly..

god...guide me..i am helpless again...

...kamu yang tentukan

...berpuluh tahun bersama..apa yang dapat mengikat begitu lama...cinta ke..tak ...tak....tak seberahi itu...

..gaduh..selalu..masam muka..selalu...berleter..selalu..nain angin, bertukar kata yang pedih juga selalu..

..kenapa boleh bertahan begitu lama...

..kerana kami masih lagi ada jodoh...

..kerana kami cepat cepat mohon maaf dan memaafkan..

..kerana kami sedar kami manusia sebegini lemah..

..kerana kami sedar..siapa lah kami tanpa satu sama lain..

..kerana kami yang tentukan..untuk selalu..ucapkan..kata kata rindu ....

..Lagi lagi macam ni lah keadaannya..

..melayu..dan sudah semestinya tapi tak sewajibnya adalah orang islam di malaysia ini..

..dan sudah semestinya tapi tak semua..suka berdengki dan tamak dan ego dan degil..

...senang jer aku cakap..kalau dah sumber rezekinya dari xxxxxx.......kesudahannya..tak payah lah aku panjang kan lagi..

..nak kata aku bagus sangat.sudah tentu tidak..bergantang aku buat dosa setiap hari...tapi..mungkin aku sebangang ini tak mudah terjebak..

..selalu aku kata kat mereka...kalau dah tak reti berenang..jangan lah berdiri di tepi kolam yang dalam dan licin..

..berbakul aje kawan aku kena makan angin kus kus aku..sebab dah nak sangat tahu pendirian aku tentang perlantikan baru surau aku yang nak roboh ni...

...biarlah..kata aku..kalau nak sangat membuat pembaharuan hendaklah mengundi dengan jujur..

..jika tiada kejujuran di sana...kita berdoalah ....sebab itu sahaja layak kita dapat perbuat memandangkan...kroni mereka 80 kali ganda dari kita...

...dan aku sudah malas untuk memanjangkan marah kearah..yang tidak memajukan diri aku..secara batiniah..

..pesan aku sebelum aku berangkat balik...kalau aku dah jauh besok..dan kalian tinggal ...peganglah..perbuat lah dengan ikhlas kerana allah semata mata...

..jangan marah jika kita perbuat untuk allah..kerana allah..demi allah...KERANA YANG MEMANDANG DAN MEMBALAS..ALLAH LAH JUA...

SEKIAN..

WASSALLAM

...life goes on..

..once a while your door to your sacred heart being knocked by someone who is different.. i meant better..most of the time are...

and the situation is that ...in the current moment wishes you to joind the other prettier boat..

...dont..

..life is does not build by a day or by one person ..sacrifies are plenty..

you need to be responsible to many...and definitely to yourself.. be fair

and if you keep building a new life..when will you know you will receive that paradise at the end...

be brave to sail the waves ..you are not alone...believe me...

only strong persistant attitudes will overcome the dark side of our life..

lets hold hand...


and

i am extending mine...

..when we do business..or giving services..

..i had made up my mind..i had terminated my streamyx services after 2 years..connecting to them ..what a pity..

...i cannot tolerate anymore with these hiccups everynight.. (i am doing epjj and connection to internet is urgent)..

..i cannot help it...i have enough patience..and today..i bought my maxis broadband even..
i hardly have enough cash to survive until end of this month..but I cant stand it any longer..

..it has been bad since a month ago..and every time I had to call the technician..and they had guided me by asking me some stupid questions..repeatedly every night...it was the same irritably stupid questions.... plenty of it..try to call them..

..they love to assume you are dungu and that you do not understand what is connection all about or to even retry or to re shutdown..again or reconnected.... several times before calling them..

...i had it so much until one day..the technician that guided me had it off balanced..she had asked me to do something rather strange and then cannot guide me how to undone it..and she asked me to go to the computer technician...without a pity in her voice... it is scary when she said my computer is faulty..(hello..how do you know it is faulty since I had it ok 10 minutes ago with no crash whatsoever)..

..i do not need a computer technician but someone who can explain to me why is the ups and down of the connection..the answers is always assuming your machine is at fault or maybe your streamyx box..and never their line or connection..

..my streamyx box is healthy..my phone line is healthy where I used the same line (using splitter) to complain.. and they had the cheek asking me how is your phone line..?

...and...tonite..i am using the 3.6 mbps maxis broadbad connection ..it is connecting smoothly..as the most expensive silk that all your money can but..and .there is.no interruption and no hiccups..nor death of the line..

..goodbye streamyx..and people..who is reading this blog..quit using streamyx..it is not stable ..the technician is less stable than the line itself..(but there is one..one..occasion that I were guided intelligently)..forgot his name.. (and they are so brave selling the combo..condo whatsoever when they should be looking how to improve the connection thoroughly)..

...this maxis broadband..is super efficient.it..is .fast..no hiccups since 9.00 pm ...till now..12.46..my streaming connection is superbbly gorgeos... i had listened to Klassik FM..malar segar..with no breakdown..

the feeling is priceless...it is merely RM138 --per month..for now..

...until then..